Luna Merbruja

Living liberation

“FOR ALL MY HOMEGURLS WHO ARE SEMI/NON-PASSABLE” video poem (2014)

FOR ALL MY HOMEGURLS WHO ARE SEMI/NON-PASSABLE by Luna Merbruja
February 2014

you’re fucking beautiful.
no question. no doubts. no “if”s “but”s or “umm”s about that.
you. are. fucking. beautiful.

yes bitch, you missed a spot shaving.
yes gurl, you have some 5 o’clock shadow coming in under your foundation.
yes sweetheart, your body shape doesn’t have JLo or BeyoncĂ© curves

AND you are still fucking beautiful.
no questions. no doubts. no ifs/buts/umms about that.

yes ma’am you work that $5 thrift store dress
or that $50 H&M dress you had to hustle for.
yes bitch you work that job where you’re gendered he/him/his
and come home to a loved one that will call you
– Princess
– Queen
– Survivor Goddess
BECAUSE THAT’S WHO AND WHAT YOU ARE

no questions. no doubts. no ifs/buts/umms about that.

yes gurl your dating pools feels smaller than your last man’s dick
but i promise you
i promise you with every magic star we’re made of
that you will
you will
you will
have a love that cares for you in ways that will transform you
a love that will nourish you
a love that will make romantic comedies seem too complicated

no questions. no doubts. no ifs/buts/umms about that.

gurl, maybe you’re not a gurl.
maybe you’re non-binary or barely binary or what’s a binary?
and that’s great.
you are you and i promise to see you through and through.

rock your hairy legs and pits and face
and maybe shave them sometimes
or maybe shave them all the time
and hate how prickly and quickly the hair grows back

it’s a reminder of how quickly and prickly our healing will be
but not our love
not our lives
it doesn’t have to be that way

i can’t lie and say our lives will be bread on butter
it won’t be as smooth as banana peels
and it may not be as glamorous as fame.

i can say that we are special
not an exception nor a rule.
not an oddity, but a rarity.

we are fucking magical.
we are more than fantasies and wishlists.
we are more than hookers and hos
(and it’s totally okay to embrace that identity too
because // let’s be real // that’s our hustle boo)

it’s okay
homegurl
ask for more

ask the sun to dim its light
demand the moon pull the tide up close to your feet
shake the earth with thighs freckled with ingrown hairs
scream your needs and i promise our ancestors who died for our liberation
will come

they will come

if you ask yourself,
would you save your younger self?
would you love your younger self who needed you?

if you answer yes,
the spirits will come to you
they will protect you
they will bless you

no questions. no doubts. no ifs/buts/umms about that.

homegurls,
the only thing we’ll ever pass as
is ourselves
in all of our unique, ethereal glory.

when you love yourself
you are loving all of those who look like you
who are caught in similar intersections like you

when you love yourself
you are loving me
when i love me
i am loving you

we deserve each other
and more than what this world has to offer

so order a new dessert you’ve always wanted to try
ride that vibrator to orgasmic ecstasy
make out with that cutie
buy all the clothes and make up and accessories you desire
and maybe find a good friend/lover/suga daddy to fund these delicacies
and enjoy your life as you please.

no questions. no doubts. no ifs/but/umms about that.